May the Sin be upon My Hands;
I am a carbon copy of you.
I am your mistake.
My God, Will you always fear me?
You are indecisive to my being.
I am to blame for this destruction.
I am the reason you walk with your limp.
I am the reason your smile has faded.
Your eyes remain swollen
And the face you carry has been unchanged,
For some time now.
You are weak.
I have sucked the life from your once happy soul.
My guilt drains the blood from your veins.
I fear we have gained no control.
I am the weakness in your step.
I cannot conform to this,
In-able, Self consumed walk through life,
that we share apart.
Yet no longer able to confine in you,
I still carry my knife.
Fleeting.
Fleeting:
fear-driven conformity,
Loss of individuality,
Dependence on their spirit.
Gaining:
Self Discipline,
Worth.
Harmony in my soul,
that merely relies on
that of what is moral.
Hurting:
a love-sickened heart
that has stayed true.
Abandonment,
on my behalf.
Sorry:
for the coward in me.
the betrayer in me,
the deceiver in me,
the lies i told,
while you lingered on every word.
Fleeting:
actions that made happy,
Everyone.
but myself.
words that never had a meaning
thoughts left unspoken
solely to deny my true feelings.
Yes, I am Fleeting..
(Nonetis.)
Vulnerable
I know that we are wrong.
Screaming, inside to walk away.
Slowly breaking me with every word you say.
Through this emptiness,
that is apart of me.
Making our mistakes,
Your always killing me.
Thinking that our love was free,
You have taken all of me.
I can't breathe-
You have suffocated the good in me.
Drowned my will to black.
Seductions led your lead.
"Please, Hurt me just a little less"
But you will only possess me.
My weakness in your hands
as they desire control of me.
My body inches under yours.
my s l o w heartbeat.
I should have known the beast in front of me,
Disguised your ugly
You intend more from me.
Demanding my skin to see.
Darkness, we can no longer be.
Yet in my spineless being, you steal the key.
My body always fucking betrays me.
It agrees and falls prisoner to this scheme.
I refuse to believe you will always haunt me.
But still the sight of your name,
restricts me, my every will to leave.
Copyright (c) Brandi Kennedy 2009.
