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Out Of Words.

escaped inside my being.

lifeless, on the verge of coma.

dreams?

have almost all abanonded me.

speaking from the depths of my soul.

i have learned to be careful.

words creep out.

and i am left by you again.

ashamed of who you are.

emotionally drained.

and stained to my memory

is what i cannot fathom

how a beautiful face turned ugly.

a face no longer known.

you came to serve your purpose

and left beyond my will.

if not speaking

would help my sanity,

i will not say another word;

if being without you,

will ease my depression,

i will isolate you forever;

if forgetting was easy

if forgiving was worth it.

i would be fine today.

Runaway;

I will never understand why I went back.

I dance around his words and alter phrases in my head.

I forgive, and forget in hopes it will make him realize,

I do it all for him.

I dont know why I can never run away.

I've been held down by these strings

and I've let them destroy

my only knowledge of sovereignty.

I will never know why I let him control my emotions.

I can't understand why I never run away.

Why is my decree not as strong as it used to be?

Now you can't answer.

Nothing from you to say,

You're too strong to let your ego feel ashamed.