I do not believe my history will disappear
to bring you happiness.
I do not believe I can let them go.
My addictions are too far gone.
You were love. You gave love.
But I've let you go to live the hell on my
own.
You can't fix what I have broken, You can
not fix me anymore.
I fear starting over with you.
I fear I no longer love you. I dont love you.
I want you in my head,
but you got to comfortable.
The reality of the lost possess no soul to speak
It claims you, it claims me.
It leaves a memory, for your mind to weep.
Then with no strength left in mankinds beings.
It blinds your eyes, no use for seeing.
There is no such thing as freedom,
we are not allowed to speak.
Our minds hold our values
and inside each and every one of us,
Hope seeks.
Selfless-
The body lies
The soul is weak.
I am what temptation craves.
Captivated by your disguise
Your words, healed my wounds.
The story's broken
You broke into my heart
Your invasions made me feel.
Your attacks made me selfless.
I am afraid I no longer desire
the many rules you've given this game.
In this most content moment,
Life rewinds to your vulnerability.
And soon, you're dancing with the Devil.
I don't know what you need from me.
Then again, I never have..
I will never understand why you stay.
Do I possess a hope, or are you captivated by my youth?
That I am natural.
It is said our age difference is not normal.
I am realizing now you're nothing but a trapped child.
You expect me to nuture.
You expect me to love.
You demand my patience
And you steal what I have left to call my own,
Who I am.
You can't grow up
You will never change.
Determination will let me satisfy the crave.
And I'll grow old,
leave years behind.
Yet you'll forever be phased by the boy
you never left behind.
We tend to always find something,
something to do with our hands.
He is breathing.
Yet there is no sound, and I feel nothing.
You questioned me
But I will not answer. (big mistake)
you second guess me
Yet do as I say.
I am woman.
Ready, Willing to thrive.
You're a thief,
played by my emotions.
No more.
I question you
I get degraded.
Your a man
whom I've shot down authority.
I second guess you
you fill my ears with lies.
Ive never hated myself,
for my youth so much.
So, goodbye.
With us, there is no future.
Copyright (c) Brandi Kennedy 2009.
